Maafin Aku ya Muti :'( #3

     It was a nice date. Jujur, seumur hidup gue. Gue cuma pernah kencan satu kali. Hanya sekali! Sama Muti. So, what's next?

---Trials of love---

     Besoknya, Gue udah mulai masuk sekolah. Ketemu teman-teman dan gue udah siap ceritain mereka soal kejadian kemaren. Hihi, pamer banget gue. Gapapa deh, Gue pun cerita ke mereka. Ternyata, sebagian suka dan seneng gue pacaran sama Muti. Tapi, banyak juga yang nggak suka sama hubungan gue sama dia. Gue coba dengerin pendapat mereka. Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa?

     Banyak banget yang mereka bilang soal kekurangan si Muti, dan terkadang Muti di banding-bandingin sama Pitty, mantan gue juga (pada saat itu gue yang diputusin sampai stress). Yah, menurut gue, semua orang punya kekurangan dan kelebihan. Nggak mungkin sempurna semuanya. Tapi waktu itu, gue nggak sadar akan kata-kata ini. So, mental gue mulai goyah.

     Hmph. Pertama tama gue nggak begitu peduli sih. Tapi, kok kayaknya aneh banget ya. Anak-anak SMP Muti, datang ke gue, dan bilang yang aneh-aneh lah tentang dia. Gila! Cobaan banget! Beberapa kata mereka ngebuat gue sangat illfeel sama pacar gue sendiri. Gue coba buat nutup telinga dan hati gue rapet rapet. Tapi karena mereka sering nongol di depan muka gue satu minggu penuh. Hati sama otak gue. Udah nggak bisa nahan lagi.

     Sebagian besar, anak kelas gue nggak setuju. Tapi, gue tau. Mereka ngelakuin itu karena mereka juga sayang sama gue. So, gue nggak bisa dan nggak akan pernah menyalahkan mereka. So, I will do anything i need to do. But what!? Broke her up? I can't! Akhirnya gue memutuskan ngediemin Muti. Sampai dia yang mutusin gue. Ga tega soalnya.

---The end of my Love Story---

     Do you remember? Gue nembak dia di Facebook, dan kita putus juga via Facebook. Aneh banget ya. Gue ngecek di Chatbox , dan ternyata Muti online. Mungkin gue terlalu takut buat ngajak dia ngomong serius. Tapi, hati gue udah kosong. Keadaan nggak mendukung kami. Sampai akhirnya, dia yang ngajak ngomong duluan. Sampai akhirnya dia nanya. "So, Rangga, what do you want? Broke up?". Aduh, apa yang harus gue jawab. Sebenarnya gue nggak mau. Tapi, ARGH! Akhirnya gue jawab gini. "8A is my parents, and I listened what they said.". Gue tau, Muti pasti sedih banget. Dan akhirnya. Kita berteman kembali.

     Dear Muti, I knew, I was wrong. And I just want to say Sorry, Sorry, and Sorry. I’m an ordinary and sinful human being. Situation didn’t support us in our way for love for the last time. For god sake, I’m sorry, for hurt your heart, for made you cry, disappointed, and felt guilty. And I’ll always remember all of our sweet moment. Your pictures are still in my wallet now. And also your name, is still in my heart right now and forever. Please, promise me. I want you to tell the next luckiest man of the world, who will be your next confession that he will never do all of the things that I’ve done to you. I'm sorry.

The boy who ever loved you

                                                                                                      Rangga

-Jason M'raz - Lucky-

Do you hear me? 
I'm talking to you 
Across the water 
Across the deep blue ocean 
Under the open sky 
Oh my, baby I'm trying 

Boy I hear you in my dreams 
I feel your whisper across the sea 
I keep you with me in my heart 
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 

They don't know how long it takes 
Waiting for a love like this 
Every time we say goodbye 
I wish we had one more kiss 
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 

And so I'm sailing through the sea 
To an island where we'll meet 
You'll hear the music fill the air 
I'll put a flower in your hair 

Though the breezes through the trees 
Move so pretty, you're all I see 
As the world keeps spinning round 
You hold me right here right now 

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend 
Lucky to have been where I have been 
Lucky to be coming home again 
Lucky we're in love in every way 
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed 
Lucky to be coming home someday 
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh 

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